10 APRIL 2010 SUN 12:00am

10 April 2010 Sun 12:00am

It‘s 12am now, New Zealand local time, but I cannot sleep. For the first time since I arrived into NZ,I am putting pen to paper, well, pencil, actually, to write down what I feel.

Just hours ago, I have decided that I might travel by myself for the break that I have after I am done with this job. Then I'll get to go to the places I want to go, eat things I want to eat, and do whatever I please—even if it's only for a week.

Maybe this is insignificant to many, as most new friends I have acquainted here have been doing that for a while now and they find nothing out of the ordinary for traveling alone. But for me, it is kinda exciting, really! So the prospect of traveling alone, however short the traveling might be, still excites and gives me a thrill.

Then I realized that this is what this whole working holiday is about isn’t it? Learning to be independent while enjoying my final freedom in a foreign country before I am being pulled back to the reality of life! It is a freedom indeed, and I will really hold on to it and exploit it until I can really say that I love this working holiday experience!

I have yet to have a thorough plan as to what would I do or where would I go during this short holiday of mine, my would-be last days in kiwi land…But I can’t wait for the day to come.

I shall not worry about minute stuff like I used to anymore—at least not to worry so much like last time! I shall not wonder if I would regret missing out that certain attraction and I shall not worry if going to that certain place would exhaust my very small savings…Just, try to enjoy my days here wherever I may go and whatever I may do.

It is too early to be excited, since it is still 2 months away before my job here finishes. But really, I can’t wait!

Carpe diem, right? We know it, but never truly get it. This working holiday here, I should enjoy every bit of it, before it ends before I even realize. Just 2 to 3 months more before I am back at home, I shall seize the day.

Gosh, I can hardly content my excitement; my hand is shaking while I am writing this down and it feels like I am a small kid about to get my first angpau on New Year’s Day…or it might just be the chill I get from this very cold kitchen + living hall. You would think that at this hour I will have this space all by myself, but no, my very weird Czech housemate have to watch his foreign language speaking DVD at this time...

Ahh,I might be too excited to go to bed now…It is not too late to realize what I just realized right? I still have 2-3 months to go…Anyway, I shall post this journal to my blog tomorrow and share my excitement there.

Off to bed now!